Today is the day.

[**streety**]

After 11 memorable years, it is time to say goodbye to my home.

I'm so scared and worried.. I'm losing my safety net.
I know it's the right thing to do right now and i thank you all for all the brilliant advice and encouragement you gave me when I needed it about the move.

It doesn't stop me shaking with fear and the sleepless nights.. I'm in bits tbh, however I know we will be ok.

My poor daughter has problems with change and gets support from the senco at school, so I've had to be strong for her, but everytime she cries it's so hard to keep my chin up.

Anyway, I move today.  Not sure when I'll next be back could be soon or not.

See you all later xxxx:-x

[stampingpat]

Best of luck in your new home Streety. xxxxx

[brynteg11]

Good luck streety, wishing you all the best for the future 🙂

[hightara]

i'm hoping youre settling in streety......... lovely vibes for your new home :-x

[bitsnknots]

Hope that you are settling nicely Streety.

(((((Streety and family)))))

[**streety**]

Hi everyone, thank you all for all the good wishes.

well friday went well with regards to getting everything moved,although there are a few things i need to go back for.

However as expected my daughter was very upset by bedtime and was frightened. i dont think she fell asleep until 2am on sat morning!  It upset me so much that i never slept worrying about everything. 

I didnt  realise how uncomfortable i would feel here, all the painful memories are winning the race to the front of my mind and pushing the good ones out of the way at the moment. I see my dad when he was so ill, and I see my mum standing here confused and upset with the day I took her from her home never to return playing over and over.

Im incredibly emotional and cry at the drop of a hat.  Couldnt visit mum with my  brother yesterday as i knew i would cry.

I know this is just a homesick and an adjustment phase which will pass, so im trying to keep positive.  Last night felt alot better already so i know it will continue to do so.

I feel really silly, as people move all the time whether they chose to or not, and im incredibly lucky to have this opportunity.

ooking forward to enjoying the 125ft garden 🙂

One more thing. It took me nearly an hour to thoroughly hoover, when before it took 10 mins!

That is just not on :D! xxx

I have wifi for a little while but it stops in about 4 days until i can get connected again.

[dark_castle1]

Welcome home Streety on both counts. Nice to see you back here and good memories will come back to take over once you have settled in your old home.

May only good fortune shine on you and your family from this day forth.

[bidder.17]

I was thinking about your move earlier this morning.

I believe you have managed to sum up and analyse most of what's happening very well.
If the less desirable memories currently predominate, that's just up to the first hurdle of actually moving, and settling in, the better ones will have plenty of time to regain the lead quite soon.

Had you have stayed put, you would still have had to contend with similar memories and about losing them, along with the house.
This way it's more about adjustment to new circumstances, and fearing the loss of old securities that the past  seems to have, but the here and now doesn't.

I know you are aware it will pass and better times will come, it's just coping with what's before us at any moment in time. Enjoy the space and the garden, especially if you get some sun.

About the vacuuming, unfortunately there are always a few drawbacks for extra space :8}

[merc1_clocks]

streety...stay strong, & be happy...this is a new adventure for you :-x

[hightara]

time to make new memories streety........... once you have all your stuff in place, met the neighbours and your daughter finds new friends you will really enjoy your new home.

[*elphaba*]

Streety, moving house is recognised to be in the top 3 most stressfull life changes.  Whether its a positive move or not, its still a huge upheaval, even in the best circumstances. 

Bear in mind that depression makes changes in your brain that make it impossible to feel things as well people would.  Its inevitable a depressed person would only be able to have the negative memories push to the front when a well person would be able to easily see the future positives.   Just recognise that you have that extra challenge.   It will get better once the benefits of moving kick in and help your brain connect pleasureable feelings with your house.     It will also be easier once your daughter is happier.  Help her make her room feel hers in whatever way she wants (let her paint a mural perhaps?) 

I suggest you buy yourself a new broom, poundshop do them, and mindfully sweep every negative memory out of your house.  Be a new broom 😄 

[wizilizi]

Streety, one's mind can be so very unhelpful

In the meantime, give yourself space, talk about how you're doing (or not) & don't push yourself - those memories are hard to contend with 😞

Take heart from one who is trying to do similar & is just ahead of you, on the cusp as it were

Good things will come; I can't promise of course, but I really think they will

You are strong & brave xxxx

[*elphaba*]

Just checkin in on you Streety and wishing you and your children a peaceful and dreamless night in your new home  xx

[10phizz]

Streety. I too had to take both of my parents from their much loved home and into care.....so I know how distressing it is ........please remember it happened in the past. We cannot change that, not even what happened 10 minutes ago but you CAN make your girl`s future happy and your own along with it. Sweep that broom as Elph said.

Love your garden, fresh air is wonderful for the mind and soul, Take time to have a cuppa outside and think how lucky you are to have that and how much worse it could be being stuck in a tiny flat somewhere.

Could you get a piece of paper and hang it up on a door and write all the blessings in your life on it, just so you are reminded ?

You have a lovely daughter,......... many are denied  that

You are well enough to move,........... some don`t have a choice

Lovely big garden,............ some have  no garden 

I`m sure you get the idea.

Each day will get easier

Let the past go, we all have to learn to !!

(((HUG))).........we know you can do it, after all, you have come this far !!!!!

...........and just being nosey, where have you moved from and where to ?