hello everyone,

as many of you know i have been admitted many times over the years, infact just recently i was under section 10 which meant they could have kept me for up to six months before another review.

thankfully i presuaded them to let me go home and recuperate.

depression is an all comsuming illness which not only affects you but the mental health of those around you....... well in my case it did........... the affect i had on my kids made me even worse as i felt that rather than slowly destroy them... if i took my own life they could grieve and go on.  ( i know, i know, the far reaching affects of suicide but when im in that dark place i really believe im doing them a favour).

my friends all but one have gone and some of my family dont even speak to me which breaks my heart.

BUT the support i have had on here from many of you have seen me through some very dark times.

on my hospital cabinet i had your cards displayed as a reminder that people that i have never met felt enough compassion

to send a loving message.

i even had two beautiful pairs of shoes to prance about in from another lovely FHG'er.

i can never thank you all so much for being there for me and if ever i can help another in any way i would be honoured.

love you all