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I have to take citolapram, if I try to stop taking them I get very emotional, so much so I could burst into tears anytime, anyplace, anywhere....I feel out of control of myself and I don't like that.
I hate to do anything on my own, I don't like to go to our local coffee morning in the village if there isn't anyone I know to go in with. I know it's stupid but I've always been like that.
I'm aching really badly in my feet, legs and back today. I don't know if it's because I'm walking real bad with my heel being bad, so I'm straining muscles in my legs, or if it's a side effect from a tablet. I keep on smiling and putting up with it, but to be honest, I'm at the end of my tether with it all.
What a good thread Streety, and thank you for putting it up for us all.
I, too, have suffered from depression/anxiety/panic attacks and agoraphobia for most of my adult life.
Believe me, it can be just as debilitating, if not more sometimes, than any of the disabilities that there are.
I have 3 times beeen admitted to hospital with severe depression, fortunately, not for a good few years now, as they tend to get help to me rather than me having to go anywhere which is so much better.
Depression and anxiety both tell us big lies and they suck out of us, every "feel good" factor our of us, leaving us stranded in a deep, dark pit.
Although things are getting better with it all nowadays, there is, sadly, still a stigma attached to it, even worse for Men really.
I clearly still remember what happened to me after my first admission to hospital, so many of my "friends" deserted me, I suppose they all thought that I was completely insane or something!!
I think it's the most lonely illness anyone can ever possibly suffer with, which, in itself, just makes the depression a whole lot worse.
The more that it can be talked about and brought out in the open, the better it will be for sufferers.
My thoughts, love and hugs go to all that suffer
Very true what you say about it being lonely. Some things i have gone through i have never been able to tell people for fear of what they would think. You cannot just sanp out of it!, your not making it up, or attention seeking!!. IT IS A REAL ILLNESS. There is so much STIGMA about it all. Also there are so many different forms of depression and mental illness.. Its a very real thing.
hello everyone,
as many of you know i have been admitted many times over the years, infact just recently i was under section 10 which meant they could have kept me for up to six months before another review.
thankfully i presuaded them to let me go home and recuperate.
depression is an all comsuming illness which not only affects you but the mental health of those around you....... well in my case it did........... the affect i had on my kids made me even worse as i felt that rather than slowly destroy them... if i took my own life they could grieve and go on. ( i know, i know, the far reaching affects of suicide but when im in that dark place i really believe im doing them a favour).
my friends all but one have gone and some of my family dont even speak to me which breaks my heart.
BUT the support i have had on here from many of you have seen me through some very dark times.
on my hospital cabinet i had your cards displayed as a reminder that people that i have never met felt enough compassion
to send a loving message.
i even had two beautiful pairs of shoes to prance about in from another lovely FHG'er.
i can never thank you all so much for being there for me and if ever i can help another in any way i would be honoured.
love you all
hi tara glads you came through this bad patch and you know that we are here for you when ever you need us(((big hugs))))
I am fortunate that I have never suffered from depression but my heart goes out to anyone that does. Fair enough, there are times that I have felt low but reading this thread has made me realise that I am lucky.
Big hugs to all that suffer from this horrible illness.
my worst days are my mums birthday and the day of her death and i still blame myself to a certain extent .it does get a bit easier year on year but that feeling will never go away.i just learn to cope in a better way.
prayers go out to all in need.
