I became an atheist because, with careful examination, I came to the inevitable conclusion that the whole God thing was nothing more than a construct orignally by men who knew little of the world and which was embellished over the years mostly to answer overwise awkward questions that could expose the construct for what it was.

In that regard then Bank you are clearly being influenced,  blinded and controlled by Satan. He is the cause of you not willing to accept that you have a chance to be included in the paradise and everlasting life that God has promised.  How Sad to be a slave of one so wrotten.

Satan does know he has a very short time left, he knows his fate that he is finally going to be destroyed so he is doing his uttmost now to keep as many people like yourself from a good relationship with our creator.

If you fail to accept God and hold him in contempt like you do so be it, you are making your choice.